My romantic relationships are often so painfully fraught that I sometimes think it might be best to avoid them altogether. I’ve read books, talked to therapists, practiced various corrective techniques, but still my reactions are not the reactions I wish them to be.
When society tells me something is healthy and normal, my mutinous heart secretly sinks in despondency-yet yearns for normalcy at the same time. What ought to signal danger can trick me with a rush of euphoria. Why do I have such a hard time choosing between a red apple that is ripe and a green one that is sickening? I wonder if I’m like a colorblind person who can’t register certain qualities of light. An equation everybody else seems to intuitively understand.
Their focused concentration mocks my confusion. A quick scan of the room finds my classmates busily scribbling in their notebooks, unlocking mathematical mysteries. Why can’t I get it? Her air of effortless competency is fascinating-and alien. But tears threaten to roll down my cheeks. I want so badly to follow her, to grasp the elusive geometric truths, to prove my worthiness. Her voice is kind and encouraging: “Now you try it.” Start with this, add this, go here, do that and presto! Everything resolves into harmonious logic.
Sex addicts anonymous meetings are messed up series#
She writes a series of neatly numbered steps indicating the path to results that ought to seem obvious. My young teacher is projecting elegant arcs and angles onto the wall. Sometimes when I think of love, my mind floats back to a scene from my high school geometry class. I hope to hear from you if you find anything here interesting, thought provoking, or you just want to put something in print.This article originally appeared on The Influence. In order to complete my course requirements. So, I’m nearly done with my Life Coach training. Now that I have a couple of years of sobriety under my belt, I want to give back in a more formal way, going beyond sponsorship and being a group representative and conference lecturer. I am in the process of reinventing myself. To introduce myself, in a nutshell: I am a Bipolar retired Pediatrician who is addicted to sex, alcohol, and marijuana (not necessarily in that order) with a strong interest in addiction neuroscience, sex addiction, cognitive science, and Eastern philosophy and religion. anything else anyone wants to bring up (but the above are the biggies) Eastern philosophy/religion and how embracing the paradox of Buddhist logic makes a lot of very confusing and conflicting ideas sensible –recovery from sex addiction in particular and working the “Steps” Up for discussion: –addiction neuroscience and the implications for our society Basically, I enjoy journaling and occasionally have a good idea. The ideas here are just for your consideration. I am, however, on my way to becoming a full-time recovery coach and am planning on starting a business: PARADOX RECOVERY. Just to be clear: THIS SITE IS NOT TRYING TO SELL YOU ANYTHING.
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